From the Wilderness of Denial to the Heights of Triumph

From Trauma to Triumph

I was wandering in the wilderness (of denial), so to speak, but when I looked in the mirror one day and decided to commit to myself a life worth living, I committed to that with the same and greater fervor to my wholeness that I had to my demise.

I would try anything if I thought that it would further my personal growth.  All the strength and perseverance I needed to survive; I now began to use to triumph over my traumatic past.  I put in the work (I do schema therapy), and let God do the rest which allows me to soar to new heights of being.

The above two paragraphs are an excerpt from my recent presentation at the Association for Holistic Skincare Practitioners annual conference.  It is referring to the day I took a denial-free look in the mirror at myself.  That deep look into the awareness of my soul was the beginning of my upward ascent to the light, my wholeness, and being/living in my true self.  

The next step (I highly recommend) that I took is to get down on my knees (humble) and ask for God’s help.  Why did I ask for God’s help?  I had let go of God’s hand and was lost in thinking I didn’t need help, but the realistic look in the mirror led me to humility and being finally ready and able to ask God for help.

I recently ran across an article in People.com where Mary J. Blige told People magazine about the one thing she does every, single day – she looks in the mirror!!  That connection to self and to God puts you in alignment in your day.  However, if you don’t do these things or something else that assists you in getting that connection, you could have a doom and gloom day. On those doom and gloom days, PTSD and C-PTSD challenges on top of not getting aligned could lead you into a downward spiral.  My downward spiral lasted over two decades.

I begin my day with lying in bed and doing some stretching, followed with a prayer of thanksgiving. Next, I do some yoga/gyrokinesis poses and moves, followed by a cleansing shower, face care, and make-up.  I always, always use sunscreen infused foundation no matter how much or little other make-up I choose that day.  My breakfast follows with plant high-protein, bone broth powder in a smoothy plus fiber-rich sprouted oatmeal topped with probiotic rich goat milk kefir.  I must also have my organic, cocoa keto cups either by themselves or melted in my cereal.  I take certain tinctures and supplements daily.  I begin my day by fueling myself with my connection to God and continue fueling myself with body movement and nourishing foods and supplementation throughout my day.  Toward evening, I take the supplements that I need to regulate my cortisol so that, when it’s time for bed, I can go to sleep and stay asleep.

The above routine may seem like a lot, but I have found that it does take a lot of consistency and commitment to recover from PTSD and C-PTSD.  Be thoughtful, gentle, and compassionate with yourself because the recovery process does not happen overnight.  Learn more here about recovery and more @ National Center for PYSD